Tuesday, October 19, 2010
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Thursday, July 29, 2010
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Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Happiness
- finding you musical soulmate
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Monday, July 19, 2010
I want to start living my life
I’m tired of feeling chained down by the internet, by text messages, by the television, by other people.
I want to run and keep running and keep running until I end up in a place where I can breathe God in and never have worry about forgetting when it’s time to exhale.
I want bare feet and promises that never get taken back. I want to hear things that are said from the depth of truth, not from impulse or emotion.
I want to be wrapped in a hug and know that I was made for them. I want swing-sets and cliff-diving. I want bonfires and the feeling of family that I’ve been missing my whole life.
I want this awful aching feeling in my chest to go away.
I want to be sure of something for once in my life.
I want to stop questioning evrything people say to me.
i want to lose my attachment to this world.
I want to stop getting my heart broken.I woke up feeling like this, missing everything.
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SPM TIMETABLE 2010
Monday 22/11/2010
8:00 - 10:15 AM
Bahasa Melayu 1
11:00 - 12:15 PM
Seni Visual (Teori)
2:00 - 4:30 PM
Bahasa Melayu 2
Tuesday 23/11/2010
8:00 - 9:45 AM
Bahasa Inggeris 1
10:30 - 12:45 PM
Bahasa Inggeris 2
Wednesday 24/11/2010
8:00 - 9:00 AM.
Sejarah 1
10:00 - 12:30 PM
Sejarah 2
Thursday 25/11/2010
8:00 - 9:15 AM
Math 1
10:00 - 12:30 PM
Math 2
Monday 29/11/2010
8:00 - 10:30 AM
Moral
Tuesday 30/11/2010
8:00 - 10:00 AM
Add Math 1
2:00-4:00 PM
Add Math 2
Wednasday 1/12/2010
8:00 - 9:15 AM
Science 1
8:00 - 9:15 AM
Physics 1
10:00 - 12:30 PM
Science 2
10:00 - 12:30 PM
Physics 2
2:00 - 3:30 PM
Physics 3
Thursday 2/12/2010
8:00 - 9:15AM
Chemistry 1
10:00 - 12:30 PM
Chemistry 2
2:00 - 3:30 PM
Chemistry 3
Monday 6/12/2010
8:00 - 9:15 AM
Perdagangan 1
8:00 - 9:15 AM
Biology 1
10:00 - 12:00 PM
Perdagangan 2
10:00 - 12:30 PM
Biology 2
2:00 - 3:30 PM
Biology 3
Wednesday 8/12/2010
11:15 - 12:30 PM
Accounts 1
2:00 - 4:30 PM
Accounts 2
Thursday 9/12/2010
2:00 - 5:00 PM
Seni Visual 2
Monday 13/12/2010
8:00 - 10:15 AM
Bahasa Cina 1
11:15 - 1:00 PM
Bahasa Cina 2
2:00 - 4:00 PM
Geografi 2
Tuesday 14/12/2010
2:00 - 3.15 PM
Geografi 1
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Wednesday, July 14, 2010
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Tuesday, July 13, 2010
“If he could learn to love another, and earn her love in return by the time the last petal fell, then the spell would be broken. If not, he would be doomed to remain a beast for all time. As the years passed, he fell into despair and lost all hope. For who could ever learn to love a beast?”
— | Beauty & the Beast |
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Monday, July 12, 2010
— | The Perks of Being a Wallflower |
Posted by Esther Keun at 7:04 AM 0 comments
“You weren’t created to be a failure. Sure some things may not have worked out and there have been some disappointments. But all these things helped guide you in a direction that was meant for you. Your life has purpose and significance. Try to be patient if it isn’t all crystal clear just yet. For now, just know that you weren’t created to fail.”
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For example, take a look at actual questions for SPM Math:
1960s - The equation 3x^2+px+120=0, where p >0 has roots α and β. α-β=3. Evaluate the value of p and (αβ)^2. Hence, calculate the third derivative of y=3x^2+px+120.
1980s - The quadratic equation x^2+px+q=0 has roots -2 and 6. Find the value of (p+q), hence, form a quadratic equation with roots p, q
2000s - A quadratic equation has the roots 2 and 3. State the sum of 2 and 3.
2020 - If the number 2 is a color, would you like that color? Why?
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Sunday, July 11, 2010
“I saw you today. I realized how far apart we’ve grown. I know I should ask you how you’re doing, but I can’t. I wish I could. It occurred to me that we’re strangers now. You don’t know me anymore, much less want to. Everything is so different now.”
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Wednesday, July 7, 2010
“Then, without warning, we both straightened up, turned towards each other, and began to kiss. After that, it is difficult for me to speak of what happened. Such things have little to do with words, so little, in fact, that it seems almost pointless to try to express them. If anything, I would say we were falling into each other, that we were falling so fast and so far that nothing could catch us. Again, I lapse into metaphor. But that is probably beside the point. For whether or not I can talk about it does not change the truth of what happened. The fact is, there never was such a kiss, and in all my life I doubt there can ever be such a kiss again."
From The New York Trilogy by Paul Auster
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